TOtOrO heRe!!

2009-04-21T00:11:00.002+03:00

I don't worth a penny..

2009-04-19T19:10:00.003+03:00

"Sorry daddy..."

"ни высота, ни глубина
не смогут нас
отлучит от Христа"

Running up the staircase, my heart was beating with pulse over 100/min, and I am breathing over 20/min. It has been a week i waited, every Sunday is the day I get to go there and it's the very same day I started waiting for the next one.

I don't know how many times I will say, "I'm sorry daddy..."

But I know He has promised to forgive me if I truthfully come to repentance.

There are people I couldn't accept and there are people I love being with, but I know God looks at everybody the same. It's not because of you are quiet He loves you, but even you are noisy. Not on the very same day you accepted Him, you are totally changed, but it's the day you decided to be better.

Knowing my granduncle has gotten throat cancer, I recalled his life, his wife...... What will be in your mind on the day you are so weak, laying down on the bed, knowing you might not live till tomorrow and do not know where will you be heading towards?

Recalling back all you have been through, all that you have done on this earth, all that you have gone through, with or without help...... Why are you on this earth? Why are you working to survive for another day?

Some people says, " You have gone too far... thought too much... I do not know, but this is all that has been in my brain. And I know I have found the answer and I want to work out better. I can't and I am not good at all now, but I have no right to say to others, 'you are a bad servant of Christ' because I know I am not any better in God's eyes."

"I know You don't see through our eyes, please help everyone of us to understand this!"

there is a reason...

2009-01-09T04:59:00.003+03:00

When the tears were flowing down my cheeks, I hardly understood how could it be. It's exams period and I couldnt concentrate. My eyes were blurred, and my brain was not running, I needed a rest.

I went up the stairs and came to this very familiar room. I used to be there and I am always comforted there. I like hiding inside the huge blanket and laying my head on the soft pillow. I didn't look up, didn't have eye contact with the owner but straight jumped onto the bed and said, " Can I nap for awhile?" And I knew the answer would be "Yes!"

I didn't want to share about it to her, simply because I need more time for my studies. Anyway, I told myself "I'm alright!".

Thank God was, after taking that nap, I could stay up for that morning.

A bad news strucked one of my friends at 5 o'clock in the morning. I ran up the stairs again, I couldnt speak a word but only could lend him a shoulder.

I believe, it's indeed a bad night for me. In everybody eyes, even myself, I wasted my time simply because of stupid emotional depression, but God had a greater plan for that morning. He planned for me to be the comforter, He planned for me to be the one that available. He works as His promises, "He work everything for GOOD for those who loves Him" (Romans 8:28)

Tons of tears I lost, tons of strength was down the drain. But that morning He ensured me that He has a purpose for my life, in a different aspect a different dimension!

"Keep using me as your vessel, God. I want to be who you planned me to be."

a brand new year!

2009-01-03T06:17:00.003+03:00

3rd January, 6.19 a.m. it's holiday!! *not really though, more like a study week for us.*

I was trying to focus, but attempts failed. Got to keep trying though.

Being emotional this few days out of stress, but will be alright because My God is My strength!

Don't like getting angry over something because it wastes my time and energy and it doesn't bring any good. But, sometimes, I do get angry.

Don't like being discouraged due to disappointments because it troubles my mind and God reminded me, "...Do not be discouraged, for the Lord will be with you wherever you go." But somehow I need time to get rid of the bad emotions =)

I want to be obedient, because being obedient will bring less troubles to others. *though I'm quite rebellious in nature* Thank God for my parents that have taught me to well-behave.

I'm sorry because I'm not perfect, but i'm not a mistake, my dad planned when to have me because God first put the plan in his mind! =)

......I got to get back to work and get back on track and not going to be sad over things that is not in my control! =)

Thanks for reminding me about my own blog and I feel much better now..

it's 6.34 a.m. now, drinking thick thick coffee....

Joking / Kidding

2008-08-08T11:55:00.002+03:00

Reading an interesting article today, the last part of the article caught my attention. I know we, as Malaysians, are using British English, because we were once being colonised by their country. However, I never know that JOKING is British English and KIDDING is American English.

(BrE) = (AmE)
bill (e.g. for restaurant meal) = check,
flyover = overpass,
full-stop = period,
groundnut = peanut,
maize = corn,
petrol = gasoline

I wonder if I am writing my SPM English paper now, will it be marked as a mistake when I put overpass instead of flyover or peanut instead of groundnut. (Do you use 'groundnut butter' or 'peanut butter'?) I still can remember we were always being corrected when we write COLOR (AmE), APOLOGIZED (AmE) etc.

Russians are using American English, so it's quite confusing when I shifted here the first year in my university. However, it's not much a trouble as I am studying in Medical Faculty and not English Language Faculty. =P

Do the examiners really define which words are of British English and which are of American's? or they don't really know it well? Today's world is so much being influenced by American's culture, how can we really separate BrE from AmE?

I guess language is a pretty difficult subject to go deep into UH~~. =)

Dirty Zone!

2008-08-07T20:48:00.004+03:00

Feeling exhausted... At last, I am all alone now. I invited some guests to my hostel simply because I wanted to fellowship with them. We, once, worked very closely together, but as time has passed, we are now working independently in God's ministry.

Banky is the very first African which I am very closed with. We used to spend our nights by the side of the computers, editing the videos we had. Daniel, a guy who is actually older than me but treating me as an older sister, who I respect for his commitments in learning and growing. Ebony, a brand new friend. =)

Though I was tired of working on call the previous night in the hospital, I really wanted to make this fellowship a good one. So, I did all I can. =) I don't think my cooking was nice but I really love having them as my guests. Thanks for coming, guys!

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Recalling the days just before I came over to Moscow for my medical study, there were people rejoicing with me, simply being excited; there were people questioning me......

"Do you know that being a doctor, you have to do all kinds of dirty works?"

Indeed, she was right. Being a doctor do sound great, having a title "Dr." before you name and "MBBS" or "MD" following your name. However, many times, you have to get your hands on the works that neither a normal businessman nor a teacher will ever do. For example, treating a patient with infectious disease that you might get infected easily.

Did I regret getting into medical faculty ever since? NO!

From the very basic I learned, I learned from the nurses. From doing injections till mopping the floor and throwing the rubbish into the dumping place which smells at least 10 m away. Imagine the boredom that might fill you when every time you step into the hospital you know you are going to face people's buttocks, count the used needles, mop the floor, do enema, withdraw the gastric juices mixed with half-dissolved food and so on. You simply just a living machine!

However, from the same works I did, I learned. I learned cleaning the place as if it's my own room. I learned injecting with minimum feelings of pain. I learned withdrawing stuffs from the wound with full attention.

The more you do, is not an excuse for doing more mistakes due to boredom, but to practice more frequent to make your works perfect.

I am, indeed, very tired, but I enjoyed working there because I learned a lot from working. It'll sharpen my character, I hope.

On call day...

2008-08-04T21:34:00.001+03:00

Waking up in the morning, a little bit late, at 0715 I went reluctantly to the cupboard and grabbed a packet of noodles stating "DONE in 3 MINUTES!" Obviously I'll be late to hospital, but still, I don't want to rush. I just want to enjoy my breakfast slowly.

I like going there, I love the hospital, I love working there. The only thing that make me feel reluctant of is the distance. As usual, I got to travel 1 hour and the half just to get my feet at the hospital compound. Entering and walking towards the department will take me another 10 minutes. If I am in Ipoh, I would have reached Taiping by that time of traveling. Tiring......

Walking into the nurse room, I saw Tanya and all I said was "Privyet!" (Hello!). Tanya was happy seeing me and she offered me "Chai khochesh?" (Tea want? = Do you want a cup of tea?). "Da, spasibo!" (Yes, thank you!) We are not lazying around, it was just not the time yet for works to come!

We chatted for some time and there came the works. It's around 1130 and we got to get ready for injections at 1200. Counting the number of injections I have to prepared, I walked towards the "Protsedurnaya Komnata" (Prosedure room). This is the place I like the most. I like withdrawing the medicine from the ampules and putting up drips on the hanger. When all are done, Tanya will say "Dawai poidiom" (Let's go).

Ward to ward we went, and the first word we said was "Ukolchiki" (little injections). We called the patients' names and they would lie on their front with their buttocks ready. One by one we did and it came to the end. We went back to the same room, disposed the used needles and that's all for that moment.

I like the room, I like standing by the side of the huge window, looking out of the window, I actually see a small part of moscow. I can't describe how much I like moscow, more than malaysia. How great God is to have created things in order. How great is He, to have seperated the heaven and the earth. I like looking up to the sky, seeing the white and blue harmonising one another. Grey has no right to be there at all!

I like looking at the trees, waving. I like the breeze blowing towards my face. I simply like nature! Gaya called me from my back, "Dawai, Yin, chai popyom" (Let's drink tea, Yin)

I wished I could stay there a little longer, but, it's just too difficult to explain to them why am I standing there, so, well, "okay!" I said.

Have you ever felt how blessed are you living on this earth? I read a book and it says, "you will not feel contented because you don't belong to the earth, you are just a foreigner, temporary staying here." However, I feel blessed, I am looking forward for more to come, the better will be, but I feel blessed because I am under God's protection and each step I take, I know He measured well before hand. I learned that the more I feel worry, the more I am, the same for feeling blessed. The more I feel blessed, the more I am.

As usual, I am quite popularily loved by Ward 820. They just love seeing me. "Devuska, dawai davlenie izmerite, pozhalusta." (Girl, please measure blood pressure). I got shock when I came to this old lady, I didn't expect much because all these while her blood pressure was quite low and today it was 80/35. I asked "How are you? Do you feel dizzy?" "No, I am just feeling weak." "ok. Rest well, anything please press the signal." "OK."

I went off and told Tanya about it. She said "She is dying."

She is dying? A 83-year-old lady, having cancer in her stomach, hemoglobin keeps on dropping, from 70 to 60 till 40. The body seems like not wanting to fight against the cancerous cells. She is just too afraid to take another injection. I wonder, what is in her mind now......

I felt so boring sitting down and doing nothing once when I was working in another hospital. I fully understand how suffering it'll be for waiting. She doesn't read a book or watch television. She doesn't have friends or family visiting her. She doesn't able to get out of her bed, she is partially bed-ridden. How she actually feels when just lying down and waiting. What is she hoping for now? A relative to come saying "HI!", a doctor telling her you are all well and you will be discharged right now, or simply just close her eyes and never wake up again?

Everyday I woke up and there are some works waiting for me to drive me on for the day and I always thank God for letting me open up my eyes for another brand new day. How about her? Opening up her eyes will make her suffer for another day? I am lost for words, I simply just don't know how big is the burden in her heart, how big are the shoes she is wearing on now.

I wonder what her consultant will say. What will you say to a patient which you feel there is no hope and she is actually old enough to stop bearing the pain just to get rid of the cancer? I wanted to approach her and have a nice chat, to kills the boredom, but I have the language barrier, so well......sigh......How many doctors will actually have the time just to sit down by the side of the patients and listen to them? A friend told me this, "Being a doctor, you can't involve too much of your feelings towards the patient into it." I agree, but I just want to care and love them.

Do you actually know how much time you have left on earth? Do the best you can to feel better! The happier are the people around you, the happier you will be. =)

Shivering in moscow's summer

2008-07-30T14:08:00.013+03:00

17C! - Cloudy (Might Rain in the afternoon)

We have 2 friends from Volgograd came visit Moscow - Joshua a.k.a Uncle Eu and his beloved wife Jean. This is the 2nd day since they came staying in our hostel. After having our breakfast, we began our Moscow tour (travel agent - S.M.S= suresh+meisiu+suetyin).

The first tourist spot will be at Kropokinskaya metro. The biggest orthodox church building in Moscow. If you have never been there, please do make your trip there as soon as possible, because it's really a very nice place. The architecture of the building is awesome, I wonder how the people would have thought of building it that way. I have a conclusion after visiting Moscow for a month - Moscow has very good maintaining system for their parks.

King Nicholas the II was the one who decided to rebuild this church. There are a big gallery at the underground level of the building, it's really interesting looking back what the people have actually done in the past decades. The history of Russia!

There is a huge bridge at the side entrance of the building. The most interesting of all about the bridge is there are locks hooking at the handle of the bridge. It might not mean too much to somebody, but I do think it's a nice symbol of love. However, beware lovers - please do remember to paint your lock before putting it up. If not it'll be rusty just like the one below. :P

After Kropokinskaya, I was quite tired. So we went to Okho Niryad metro station for lunch. Then, we headed to Tret'yakovskaya Gallery. It's really a great art gallery. We are lucky enough to have met a group of tourist from the States. They have their own private tour guide, explaining them the arts and history of Russia. Acting like one of them, I actually walked through the whole gallery together with them, but still, I just able to admire around 60% of all. It took me a long day for it.

It's not an end for that day yet. We, then, went for dinner at the "Sparrow Slope". Picnic is the dinner for the day. So, we went Ramstor supermarket to grab some drinks and bread, then, we bought a grilled chicken for our picnic too!

All in all, it's a tired day! So, we called the day off!

What a blessed day to enjoy traveling around Moscow! =)

меня зовут Галина...

2008-07-27T08:13:00.003+03:00

It's pretty cold this morning, I was shivering though I was wearing a long-sleeved jacket. As usual, I jogged at the beginning of the path and started to walk after going down the stairs. It sounds pretty lazy right?

I enjoy walking through the trees, listening to the sound made by the crickets and being bitten by unknown bugs (by the way, sometimes I killed some of them accidentally). I just simply love nature.

After studying here for 3 years, now only I know that the park is so nice and soothening. It's a good place to release stress. There are babushki and dedushki (grandpas and grandmas) walking with their beloved doggies or jogging (may be I can say they look more like running). You can barely imagine the speed of the old people in moscow. They, for sure, are much more healthier than our grandpas and grandmas back in our country.

As I reached the turning point, where I am about to return, I met a dedushka sitting by the side, holding a book, laying his hands on his tummy, wearing 2 specticles (far-sighted and short-sighted). He looked up as I passed by and I simply say "Good morning!"

He waved his hand inviting me to sit down. Feeling a bit tire, I sat by his side and we started to talk. As usual, the first question will be, " What is your name?"

"Yin!" I said. (Though I know is pretty hard for them to pronounce it, that is the shortest way people can call me)

"Giin?" He asked. "No, is Yin." (It's really difficult!)

"Y-I-N, Yin!"

"Ok! My name is Gorin"

"By the way, I think is better for me to give you a russian name. Giin = Galina. Let it be Galina" He said.

"Oook!" I smiled.

"Why are you always smiling?" He asked. "I beg your pardon?" (By the way, we were conversing in russian and my russian is not that good)

He turned his face to another side for one second and turned back to me with a smiling face like Sticth, and said "tak" with his hand pointing to his own face.

I can't stop laughing, he looked so funny.

We chatted for awhile, he was trying to correct russian sentences. At last, we ended our conversation with my sentence of "mne nado iti" (I got to go)

So... My new name is Galina! Another great morning by God grace!

my past...

2008-07-24T21:36:00.003+03:00

Browsing through my mail box as i have thousands of mails pilling up, I came to this email that really triggers my feeling. It was a mail sent by one of my late beloved friend - I used to called him Datuk (grandpa), simply because he treated me like his grand daughter and he used to call me god cucu (grandchild) also. In June 2006, I met him in a physiotherapy center, which I went to help out as I want to spend my holiday better. He was a frequent patient for the center as he had a constant back pain due to his age. I still remember the time I set him on the machines and also giving him lumbar traction. He always wanted me to stay beside him and have some talks. There is a thing that I will never forget that he taught me this:

" What is the name of FUNNY NERVE?" - ulnar nerve

It's all because it is located at the place that is not really protected by any muscles and if you got hit on that nerve, you will really feel the pain.

The first time I went into an operation room and gave intravenous injection was the time that he brought me to his working place. Yes! He was still working though he was more than 70 years old. I can say, he is a dedicated old doctor. He taught me on some clinical practices which were actually too early for me to learn at that time. However, I tried to remember them well. As I look back, he really painted many colors in my life paper. I regretted that I didn't thought of taking a photo with him. I can barely remember his face now, I wonder what will it be a few years later. Anyhow, I am sure I have had this grandpa before and he will be always in my memory!

I think I have never told you this, grandpa:
"You actually brought joy into my life at that time, and also taught me a lot. I really like having you around and I really love you as my grandpa! I know I will meet you later, in heaven! Love in Christ!"

Friends of my life....

2008-06-18T11:59:00.003+03:00

When I was 6, I had a friend whom I can't even remember her name now, but I remember really clearly that she was my best friend.
When I was 7, I had a friend who sat beside me and I taught her to be more BRAVE (haha... stupid stuffs).
When I was 8, I beat up 2 guys because they were teasing me.
When I was 9, I had a friend who likes to compete with me.
When I was 10, I met this friend who adored sitting beside me, but all she likes about was to scold me for whatever reason.
When I was 11, I had a chance to get to know this friend whom I found really sincere as a friend. When I was 12, I decided to change my seats because I can't tolerate the person beside me anymore and that was when I met a girl who was soft to me.
When I was 13, I do not know why we quarreled and we ended our close friendship ever since, When I was 14, I met the best friend of my life, and she gave me the best of all for 3 years of my secondary school life, n I gave her the promise "You will be my best friend forever and ever". We went through bitterness, but it was not a big deal :)
When I was 15, I was so protected.
When I was 16, I actually learnt that my classmates thought differently from me, In appearance they seemed so real and were amazing friends, but to stand in the background and listened to them say "she actually hated ABC since form 1" was absolutely terrifying ... hehe.. may be we were still too young...
When I was 17, i met a friend, who stayed with me for 2 years after that, and was my really nice roomie. In that very same year, I met another friend who I always ran to take shelter. At the same time, I have a friend in which I was able share all things with .. and another whose room was my refuge a place where I can run to when I do not want to talk
when i was 18, I met a friend who taught me to say "NO", a friend who is quite funny.
when i was 19, another friend made me felt this world is very weird.
when i am 20..now my current standing... I met a friend who has an almost similar life like me, a friend who can calm me down when i m angry, a friend like my mom.....(Angeline...I am talking about you :D)

What about you?

there are more friends in my life than i can list down... but it will take a long time...
I like thinking about them, I like thinking of times we spent together, I like to call them once in a while and reminisce of the days gone by, i like bringing them back to our memories,
friends are just so meaningful in our lives....Each of them are different bringing a different sensation and different feelings. None can replace the other...none can take over anyone's place because In my heart lies their footsteps no rain can wash away.....................
they came in n went out... but they are parts of my life........

staying up at nite

2008-06-18T02:38:00.001+03:00

it has been a long time i didnt come to this place n put even a single letter here... Totoro was once my story.. part of my life that has taught me a lot... taught me to say "NO", to reject something that shouldnt be accepted.. I really thank God to put this story line into my life... without it.. my life is incomplete, i might be the same old "stupid" person i was 3 years ago...

now is 3.22am n the sun is rising at this time.. it is not a weird scene to me after staying here for more than 3 years... Moscow indeed is a nice n pretty place for me... I like Moscow... but me myself i dunno y... may be i have my real part of life here in moscow...

Friends... came in n out of the storyline of my life... Once was close and now not, once was not n now is... i m scare to have frens n put up with promises to do sth together years later... but i hope i can... i hv this fren n both of us promised to nv leave each other no matter wut happens in the future... but how long can this promise stay? it's still a unknown answer.... i really hope i can go around europe with her, staying up at nite on her bed or someday mine in future.... hang out together.... but with all these hopes there always fears behind.... i fear i m the one cannot keep the promise or we are at one point being forced to give up... n say bye.. forever? is there any relationship that can be forever except from God's... i hv learned these years.. there r no eternal relationships in this world, even my godparemts love me so much n so do i.. in certain circumstances we have to give up in our relationship...

but deep in my heart i wanna still wanna promise her... i will never leave u... i really hope tht all my relationships will last forever n there will nt be a time to get far from each other.. but is it possible? i doubt... i really doubt.. the thing i hv least confident in my life probably is about relationship... i have failed to many times.... n i never want to fail again.......

2007-10-11T01:41:00.001+03:00

This is the first time I write to the blog using ms word… I HAVE TOLD YOU, MS OFFICE 2007 IS WONDERFUL!!! Who says that it is not user friendly, try out and see n u will believe how nice it is… WONDERFUL and POWERFUL…

Still awake now because still need to study a lot of things.. Anyway, I just wanna praise ms office for providing such features… nice…

tHe woRDs to U..

2007-09-02T00:18:00.000+03:00

я забыла........

I have forgotten since when i have this habit of putting my own feelings in this blog page..

2months i have rested, 3 months i have been away from this page, a month i have been escaping...

will i still be accepted??

1 semester i have been lazy from studies...

wut's my future plans and wut's the next step i m goin to take? wut will be my purpose of being here in moscow, studying medicine, being at this age, being on earth?

Have i forgotten all the answers that i have had long ago?

or I m no longer the person i was, or i have been always like this....

can You really work on changing all these for me?....

QUESTION marks -???- in my LIFE...

find for me the reason.. find for me the right path.. help me out...

nItE & dAy..

2007-05-05T09:51:00.000+03:00

have you ever think of how many calory you will get by eating juz ~~one whole~~ a small piece of chocolate cake?

Anyway it, dun mind much.. juz bite and u will feel nice....

1. blender on... sugar in... *pheeenGGggg*
2. mixer ready, ...eggs + ...g of fine sugar.... *pheeeennggGG*
3. ...g flour+...tbsp cocoa powder+...tsp soda

OVEN!!!

it smellllsss nice....

but the tiredness that caused over the whole body... is indescribable... anyway... enjoy doing it for a purpose... that's wut a life should b... doing sth with a purpose and that's a purpose to LIFE!

i miss the time we were together..

2007-04-15T22:48:00.000+03:00

Since I know you, my life is never be the same again...

How much i love you? How much i hope to see, may b just one glimpse of, you? How much i like to be under your arms? How much i hope to touch your tummy? How much i hope to .........

When I thought of telling you that...

You all came into my life...

I LOVE YOU ALL AS HOW TALL IS THE SKY....

cOMplicated rElAtionSHip.. (part2)

2007-04-11T15:32:00.000+03:00

Ermm.. this is part 2, because somebody said i forgot to describe the relationship of biaomei's biaoger' brother. Here we go...

Biaomei's biaoger's brother is my good fren and "his" "sb" is my brother, n so... rite now..

How should I call my good fren if I refer to my brother's side?

n How should I call my brother if I refer to my biaomei's biaoger's brother/good fren side?

is it understandable? anyway... juz to let u noe, we have big family and close frens here...

p/s: biaoger's kit-kat related biaomei suppose to change to kit-kat related biaojie (oso as cousin sister but it's cousin elder sister)

HaahaAHHAHhahhaaa

They Didn't Know by Kurt Carr

2007-04-11T15:30:00.000+03:00

Jerusalem on a dusty road
An innocent man condemned to death
Bore a cross on his shoulders
they didn't know
Down the via dolorosa
He staggered in agony
As he looked upon the hatred
In the eyes of his own seed
They didn't know

(Lead)
They didn't know
He was enduring this for them
So they could live forever more
In paradise with him
They didn?t know one day they'd sing his praise
With fear and trembling
They didn't recognize the king that kings called king

(Choir)
He didn't have to die for me
He could have just set himself free
He could have come down from the cross at Calvary

(Lead)
But instead He was wounded for our transgressions
and He was bruised for our iniquity

(Choir)
And by his stripes we are healed
oh what an awesome price He paid for me
The hung him high
And stretched him wide
They nailed his hands and feet
And pierced him in the side
They didn't know
Look at my savior hanging there
Suffering, bleeding, dying for me and you
Oh Jesus never said a mumbling word
but father they know not what they do
And He bowed his head, hung his head and He died (2x)
My Jesus bowed his head hung his head and He died(2x)
But on the third day
On the third day (2x)
Jesus rose
He rose (3x)
Jesus rose
Victoriously
Triumphantly
With authority
He rose
Rose (2x)
He rose

cOMplicated rElAtionSHip..

2007-04-09T19:58:00.000+03:00

my biaomei (cousin sister) owns a biaoger (cousin brother) n her biaoger owns a "wife" n a brother, now her biaoger's "wife" is pregnant, having 3-month-old fetus, 6 months later will have newborn... So 6 months later my biaomei will have a niece/a nephew or both if it will be twins, my biaomei's biaoger suddenly has a kit-kat related biaomei, who i used to call jiejie (elder sister), so now let see...

HOW SHOULD I CALL THE SO-CALLED BIAO GER?

hahahahahha...

n DO U ALL KNOW WHO IS BIAOGER'S WIFE? (stev)

lAst eYe-cOntAct..

2007-04-09T18:59:00.000+03:00

He walked away silently. The next moment, we wouldn't be seeing each other again....

He was wearing a silver colour long sleeves shirt and a tight blue jeans when i first met him. Since then, he was with me. He was there when i was studying, playing and even walking to school. Sometimes, he would appear behind of me, in front of me or he might walk to me from either side. I have never felt that nice when holding something else but him. His body always keep my chilling hand warm.

Unforturnately, he left me today without saying a single word, even a "bye".

He didn't want to, but it's all God's will. God wanted him to leave long ago, but many times, he came back to me after we pleaded God. I have never ever imagine that he left me like that. "Would you come back once again like last time? Would you? Please...."

"I haven't even taken a picture with you yet! I can't even show your face here. I scare that one day, I would have forgotten your smiling face. How could I afford to loose you."

*PAUSE*

Wait! DON'T think that @#*&%^##&*#$.....
I am writing this for my BELOVED....

PAPERMATE PACER CASSETTE mechanical pencil

He cost me rm15, the problem is not because of the price, it's because he's really my favourite mechanical pencil that I have ever had... He once fell at the doorside of the bus, my friend got it back for me, but now.. He wouldn't ever come back AGAIN....
He will be trapped in the darkness forever and ever, unless the SPORTZAL will undergo "remont"

sCary..

2007-04-08T16:58:00.000+03:00

IMMUNE, MICROB, BIOCHEM...

i havent started anything yet.. need to study... really!!!!

nowadays spending alot of time on eating, walking, looking around, typing U i tak dalee.. but not studying... n now, i need to study!!! really... :)

LaZzzzyyyyyy

2007-04-06T12:41:00.000+03:00

days by days, weeks by weeks... n i m still here... goin no where but still remain the same place.. wut m i really doin? where m i suppose to go? this is wut we said... i m ~~LOST~~ LAZY!!!

aarrrrggggg....

how come i m becoming like... PIG... ?????

3 years back.. one of my fren called herself PIG.. meaning "Pretty Intelligent Girl" but not that animal... however.. for most of the people PIG simply means pig... nothing else... *dun perasan ah.. people out there... not meaning u ah.. :P*

class is goin to start at 9am.. but i m still on the BED at 8.25am... oh nononono... wut a big lazy PIG!!!

"GET OUT OF THE BED!!"
"ENJOY UR SLEEP..."
"GET OUT OF THE BED!!"
"ENJOY UR SLEEP..."
"GET OUT OF THE BED!!"
"ENJOY UR SLEEP..."
"GET OUT OF THE BED!!"
"ENJOY UR SLEEP..."
"GET OUT OF THE BED!!"
"ENJOY UR SLEEP..."
"GET OUT OF THE BED!!"
"ENJOY UR SLEEP..."
"GET OUT OF THE BED!!"
"ENJOY UR SLEEP..."

STOP IT!!!!

stupid devil.. (that look exactly like myself) dun try to hold on to my leg!!!
pretty angel.. (that look exactly like myself too) pls help me up!!!

BIOCHEM is waiting for me in my room!!!
IMMUNE is calling me via the phone!!!
MICROB is nudging me thru msn!!!

HEY gal, start ur work now...BLOGSPOT din call u oso.. y u go n find HIM!!!

loVe stORy

2007-04-05T20:51:00.000+03:00

HaaHaaaahahaahahaa!!!!!

as the laughter went by... in their eyes we see... the faces weren't RED but deep inside.. they were blushing.....

It had been a long time, and it had really been a tough one too... as a witness of the story... i could see the happy n sad... easy n tough moment... n when she told me...

" I have accepted..."

All i had responsed was "it's GOOD!"... deep in my heart.. i felt... "phew... AT LAST..."

this is the first time indeed... the very first time she has made this IMPORTANT decision... it will probably be the MOOOSSSTTT important in her life... cos we all believe.. THIS is for FOREVER!!!

for those out there n seeing wut's happening.. dun juz LAUGH (though i noe it's FUN!)... brothers n sisters.. pls PRAY for EVERLASTING LOVE!!

hyGieNe ClaSS

2007-04-05T19:53:00.000+03:00

HYGIENE CLASS....

still remember the first day of HYGIENE class...

You better sleep than speak!

That class will be the most quite class i have ever been... "SSSSSSssssssssshhhhhhhh"

CONCENTRATING.... dun disturb la......

FINISH HW oni free to take photo mah...:P

loVe stORy

2007-04-02T15:18:00.000+03:00

a series of love story....

when his hands were holding hers, every sense of touching.. every single movement of all fingers' tips ran deep into her heart that was beating up to 100 times/min...a ring, a circle....meaning LOVE without end, LOVE as a whole... was the promise within....

every single person was TOUCHed... so deeply.. tears were running down some of the cheeks, that was the best event of a person...nothing is better than the moment when u r sure u will b living forever with ur beloved... JOY fill the place n we knew... He was there.. smiling at us.. pouring out His spirit to bless every single corner... His whispered:

LOVE YOU!

the most quiet...the most touching... the most joyful MOMENT!!

HOW much u LOVE HIM? He had given all that belong to Him to u n me, He had taught us to GIVE too... How far can u go in loving people??

As He forgives us, we have to forgive others, for our Father will not forgive those that don't forgive..

DUN try to prove that the person was wrong... even he/she was wrong... HE noes the best...

ANGRY!

2007-04-01T19:37:00.000+03:00

*angry!*...

"BLOGSPOT! i have click the button PUBLISH!... y my blog isn't published and it has GONE!!!!!"

hEaLs n sAVes

2007-03-31T01:31:00.000+03:00

saviour... He can move the mountains... My God is mighty to save.. He is mighty to save..

this song always flowing thru my mind... but until now.. i got nothin i can write out... nothin that is that public to be written out... but.. for those in front of the screen... when there is no place to write out... tell Him ur problem... let Him share with u... He is more than willing to do so...

NOW... i m much much stronger... i mean physically.. i can RUN today... :)

ooooooOOOOOOOUUUUCCCHHHH!!!!!

2007-03-25T00:26:00.000+03:00

Haizzz.... HANDICAP!

can u imagine a person eating the food like...... haizzzz juz cant control my left hand well.... wut to do? own fault, own carelessness..n stupidity......

when u come near me,sumtimes u will hear "ouch!" or"OUCH!"

n this time... is... OOOOOOOOUUUUUUCCCCCCCHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
who is the fellow that make me scream like this? ask the person la! CRUEL! T.T
the feeling is like...

in the deep layer of the skin.... blood is flowing so fast n so much... n heat coming all the way out to the surface.. pulsation aching.... niddle-like paining....juz like..."I NEED ICE!"

breath in -- out -- in -- out......."huf--fuu--huf--fuu...."

I WANT LOLLIPOP! *i bought myself one:)* (i did the same thing rite after the oil "poured" on me)---lollipop is the best medicine leh.... dont trust me? try it out n u will noe..

can anyone help me to ask chupa chups, y r they not selling strawberry milk anymore? i want strawberry milk.. the best lollipop i have ever eaten before..

pAINfulllll :)

2007-03-21T18:37:00.000+03:00

HAHAHAHaaaahhhaaa...........
at last.. can tell the truth :P....

after i got addicted in writing blog... i feel excited writing everything in the blog... like.. happy event, sad things.. wutever ... even sth like this.........

one ~~fine~~ special evening, we planned to cook for our dear ps n his family... n my reponsibilities is...sweet n sour pork...
YUMMY!

steps:
1. Cut the skin of the pork n throw it into the rubbish bin. :P
2. Cut the pork into small cube pieces.
3. Apply some salt on it for taste. (keep an eye on cholesterol)
4. Dip the pork pieces into eggs n flour. (for better--use corn flour instead of normal wheat flour)
5. Deep fry them for 15mins or until it turn brownish... *crunchy*
6. Repeat all the steps for enough amount of pork!
......

..........

.................

oooooOOOUCH!!!!

"noone ask u to fry ur hand oso ah!!!".....*sob sob*....this is wut we call carelessness :P... nth one la.. tough girl ma... :)

HOPE that this medicine WORKS!!!! :)

p/s:wish me get rid of the "thing" earlier leh....:) thx

I Don't Want To Go Somewhere

2007-03-20T09:06:00.000+03:00

You changed my world
When You came to me.
You drove a passion,
In my soul down deep,
Lord, to follow You in everything.

I don't want to go somewhere
If I know that You're not there,
'Cause I know that me without You is a lie.
And I don't want to walk that road,
Be a million miles from home,
Cause my heart needs to be where You are.
So I don't want to go.

So come whatever,
(Whatever may come)
I'll stick with You.
(Right by Your side)
I'll walk You'll lead me,
Call me crazy or a fool,
For forever I promise You...

That I don't want to go somewhere
If I know that You're not there,
'Cause I know that me without You is a lie.
And I don't want to walk that road,
Be a million miles from home,
Cause my heart needs to be where You are.
So I don't want to go

Without Your touch,
Without Your love
Filling me like an ocean.
Our grace is enough,
Enough for me.
(I don't want to go)

Never want to go somewhere
If I know that You're not there.

by Avalon
p/s:blog's background song's lyrics

dINe wITh LOVE!!

2007-03-19T23:56:00.000+03:00

cooking..cooking... cooking... *telephone vibrate at 4.45pm*

me:"hello.."
weeks:"where r u now?"
me:"in the room la..."
weeks:"done?"
me:"no la...still got lots more..."
weeks:"watch the time ah!"
me:"kkk.. bb.."

we are cooking in our own rooms n we r goin to ps ken's house to dine with them.. letting them try malaysia chinese usual dinner :)

though it's a rush... (cos everyone juz after school n need to cook n need to....HURRY!) but.. it's FUN!

we departed at 6.30pm at last.... n the funniest part is... we still need to wait if we reach there... cos our main meal ---- RICE is not cooked yet :)

things happened like this...

--sat morning--
me:"where u wanna cook ur rice?"
wendy:"i think i gonna cook in ps ken's house.."
me:"r u sure? u need to bring ur rice pot.."
wendy:"no prob.. i can put it in my bag.. no prob no prob"
me:"ok... it's up to u.."

--on the way to ps ken's house--
*in the bus*
me:"ooopsss... it's late.. n we still cant start dinner rite after reaching there.."
weeks:"y??"
me:"our main meal--RICE!! not cooked yet"
wendy:"nvm la... 30 min oni.."
me:"orite..."

*in the metro*
me:"actually juz now do u have enuf time to cook the rice?"
wendy:"ya..."
me:"y din u cook it?"
wendy:"the rice is... NOT WITH ME!"
me:"huh?" *thinking*.....*weeks bought it*.....*run to the other side n sit down*
me:"weeks.. erm.. did u bring the rice?"
weeks:**showin me large eyes**---indicating--nope....
me:**-_-**
me:"mei siu... do u have money? we gonna buy rice.."

*in ps ken's house--half way preparing to cook the rice(we cooking chicken rice actually)*
me:"where is ur chicken cube?"
wendy:"i din bring :)"
me:"huh?" **-_-**
wendy:"nvm... let's cook ginger rice..."

HAHAHAAAA.. funny rite.. but thx to our great chef--wendy... the rice n muachi n the soup super nice... corny chicken from yellow weekee chicky's gdma's recipe is wonderful... n thx for piao mei oso.. helping for cooking... n mei siu, our dishes washer...

GREAT JOB guys!! we had had a wonderful dinner... :)

p/s:will upload photos sooonnnn... :)

rESt...

2007-03-18T18:41:00.000+03:00

the week of ~~rest~~... restoration

the week of restoration is the week where i m off from everything.. taking off n juz concentrating on studies.. it's v nice :) .... BUT....

is that really me? is that really my personality-- that doesn't wanna involved in anything? may b i m not that type... may b i m from the type we call as "BUSY BODY" type... :) is busy body a kind of good thing? i dunno....

let me say.. i m not sure of myself for the whole week... i dunno actually where i wanna go?? wut i m aiming for?? --------but.. i think i noe wut i should DO! d..

think buddy.. think n think..

"i m created as how i should b, though i m not a perfect one, but He created me like this with a purpose, if i din hurt anyone.. let me b how i m n let m b how i should b.. so that i wont be lost n i wont have to worry of the next step!"

... GREAT ya!

so... wut u think.. i m that funny n that.... "wut wut wut" rite? juz try to comment n i will consider.. but b4 u comment.. think m i a problem with that or without that? :)

thx for knowing me so deeply :)

The Heart Of Worship

2007-03-17T17:28:00.000+03:00

When the music fades and all is stripped away
And I simply come
Longing just to bring something that's of worth
That will bless Your heart

I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You
All about You, Jesus
I'm sorry, Lord, for the things I've made it
When it's all about You
All about You, Jesus

King of endless worth, no one could express
How much You deserve
Though I'm weak and poor, all I have is Yours
Every single breath

by Matt Redman

p/s: pls bring everyone of us back Lord!

bOOm

2007-03-16T21:46:00.000+03:00

small small wish.. mayb i dunno how to tell... i could have learnt... but i din.. end up... good JOB! for a [bOOm]...

pieces by pieces i gathered, pieces by pieces i applied with glue

(elephant glue)... Heart din get together though...

did i really mean it in a wrong way? i tell for WINNING?? i scold for WINNING??

"YES! i WON"

*is it sarcastic enough?*... haha... "how much i hope to win a battle over u!" :P

did i really mean that?? that's wut u told me... but i dunno...

internal: "wut have u won from that?"-- me: "i dunno.. may b he mean pride gua..."
internal: "but wut u really get from that?"-- me: "dunno... now feel no strenght.."

It'll b a succeSSsss

2007-03-16T07:46:00.000+03:00

BioCHEM!!! biochem!! biochem!!! u gonna listen to me!
p/s: wish me gd luck pls.... THX!

MesSy... PuSsy..

2007-03-15T12:17:00.000+03:00

not talking bout cat... talking bout ME!

again... "i lost my notessss...!" suppose to b in the room wut.. now.. haiz.. dunno la.. T.T... i want my notes back..

"i need a maid.. i need a maid.. i need a maid.."
a person offer me the service but with term n condition.. 5 meals a day.. wut a PIGGGG :P....
no la.. anyway i cant let my frens become my maid.. cos everyone will noe how how how messy m i... how how how a lazy person m i... too sad la..

Now.. let's see.. wut is MESSY?

n wut is TIDY?

p/s: both oso not my room ah!!

tHe SpRinG day...

2007-03-14T19:03:00.000+03:00

CoLd.....

The worst thing u got during spring!...."HUH?" *blur...*

"Spring!! COLD?? r u telling the truth??"

Of cos i dun mean spring is cold when it's compared with winter... Spring is the season having the best weather... walking outside without worrying getting frozen...BUT... U will experience a day of... without HOT water... n the water flowing out the tap can numb all ur fingers within 30sec...

CAN'T BELIEVE???... try it out..:P

However... this year, they have improve a lot.. it's juz 1 day... i still rmb i experienced that condition for few days last year... How can u imaging bathing with limited volume of water? It's juz not enuf!!! is like..... coming out of the bathroom with soap on the body... "aikssss"

Another thing bad of the beginning of the spring is......

VIRUSES

flu... fever... cough...muscle pain.... headache.........

GUYS n GALS! better take care.... it's for ur own good... not my business but it's really for ur own good...

HaPPy woMEN"S dAy

2007-03-08T03:12:00.000+03:00

Happy woMEN's day... Hey guysssss getting present on that day? did the person tell u that u r like a lady?? :) i gave out present on this day too, but i dun mean that u r a women la... juz dun have time on that day.. so.. may b had let u down... SORRYYYYY....

Let's see,wut's women's day n wut's men's day? for me, both r rest dayssss, cos we dun have classes.... :) When God created man, he created "wo!"men to assist him. She is created from the rib of the man, so she is part of him n belong to him... That's y, man+woman=whole... man+man=x... woman+woman=x...

No matter wut day it is, we have to appreciate both men n women from time to time.. so guys n gals... show ur appreciation..

HoW OlD is Koh KOh....

2007-03-06T23:42:00.000+03:00

Happy bgay koh koh :P... sorry... wrongly type... happy bday.. SORRY ah... really feel thankful to those bday reminderssss... (i forgot ur bday la...paiseh..)...anyway, i still wish u early wut... :)

u noe it's nice to get a simple n from the heart present n can give u relaxation when u see or listen to it... though it's a bit funny.. but when u listen to "...i nv noe how much it cos, to see my sin upon the cross....." n "i'm coming back to the heart of worship..."

so. wut should i send u leh? wut u want for ur bday koh?let me think about it ah...hehe...

niiiccCEEEE ViDeo??? hidup berkualiti :P

2007-03-05T20:21:00.000+03:00

Heavy.......Do u noe how heavy u feel when a hammer is in ur head??...My anatomy got no prob, dun worry.. i noe inside our head, our skull is not hammer but brain... but when ur brain jam and ur head feel heavy, is juz like a hammer is hidden inside.. T.T..

Have u ever seen a person taking people's lower part of the body n swinging the video camera here n there??.. it's juz so terribly captured.. it's not a personal storage of video, but need to be produced n sell... pls do ur BEST... m i toooo straight forward?? i dun mean to shoot anyone, but that clip juz gave me lots of headache n troublessss*PiiIIpIIIiiii* *water boiling**guluulu..gugullluuuu*

can we have one week holidaysssss for woMEN's day??? i really want n need... HELP!!!!....

will write bout woMEN's day soooooonnnn....

yEE sHaNg... LoU sHaNg...

2007-03-05T02:59:00.000+03:00

yan yat??? EveryoNe's bday le... wut a wonderful day... it's on last sat...8 of us... celebrated...

i heard water dripping sound... haha.. it's from ur mouth.. :P.. not bluffinf.. it's super duper nice u noe?

lou shang members...

and.... we had our 2nd lou shang on sat.. 2days ago.... for over 30 people..*wow! huge no. leh* everyone enjoyed... "let u see the photos next time..." A lot of people asked :"what's the ingredients?"... wut i wanna say is... no matter wut's in the yee shang... it's not important.. it's all about in our heart... about HOTSPOT!! *AWAS!PANAS!*.. we will be MASSIVE in moscow...

.. i like this song.... it sings:".... i'm coming back to the heart of worship, it's all about u, it'a all about u...."

HoW olD is TOtOrO?

2007-03-05T02:04:00.000+03:00

haha... i think TOtOrO is not v old oni... juz a few months.. erm.. anyway.. i m one year old now.. i juz celebrated my "bday" an hour ago.. wut a SURPRISE!!

Wut a messy head, messy table, messy bed... messy everywhere.. :P n there r 5 visitors... "MALUNYA.." cress, eric, weekee, ee-kim & meisiu.. who will celebrate this kind of bday la?? anyway, it's v v v SPECIAL...With cress 12-oclock bday dinner, a cards with dogs (i wonder y it isn't card with catssss!--anyway it's nice), a funny handy spicy "ba gua" (not busy body punya ba gua, is dried meat from MALAYSIA, n it's spicy), and oso... sushi mushi...OOOoooopssss.. i forgot about the chocolate..

Dun be stunt n dun think that i m crazy.. how can a 1 year-old kid writing a blog? In His eyes, we all r kids, though i m juz 1 years old, i can write and can testify about HIM!! :)

Life is not easy after i was re-born, but i believe that He will make a way, He will deliver us out of all these trials n tests, as we believe we had receive, it'll be done in His name! how should we endure? all r depending on His POWER! Everyone have tried to turn away from Him, wut we got is... He is still taste the best... He said wut... TASTE amd noe He taste GOOD!

BrB

2007-03-01T19:44:00.000+03:00

have been away for a long time... still bz... will be back v v v soon with surprise!!... n my TOtOrO got stuck in the camera n not out yet.. u noe?:P

CNY eve DiNner

2007-02-18T20:38:00.000+03:00

Urghhh...*Burb..* (fullllll).... CNY eve dinner real menu (FINAL LIST):

First of all, we have our traditional Bak Jam Kai (steam chick)

then, comes the super sour lemon fish (a super good appertizer)

Special meat ball..(from... Kampar, i think.. people's g'ma recipe)

Brocolli w beef (suppose to be only vege... but we all r a better carnivor than herbivor
though we r actually omnivor...*blurrrr--@_@*)

super duber spicy crazy soup....--ma la tang-- (after trying, i din even touch it again...too spicy..)*people laughing by the side*-- me: DUN LAUGH!

Look familiar? erm... it actually shouldn't appear now... hehe.... cos we juz miss him sooooo much.. so we put him in the menu... YA! it's rite... it's "tang yuan" (glutineous ball)

*saliva dripping*

this is a tong sui we usually have during CNY... u noe? "LIN JI GEN" ---panyatna?

wut's this??? not eyes... is gingers... GHEE RICE.. aikzzzz "HIGH calorie"

do u noe u can find MANDRINE ORANGE in russia?

"sui sin" tea...

ya... it's liqour... but dun worry.. we drink a little bit oni.. it's plum wine...written u chinese..

can't believe? can find this in russia... :P

left to right: piao mei's piao ger, piao ger's "brother". piao mei n last but not least....ME!

FAMILY REUNION DINNER!!!

hehehehehheh.....

ThUrsdAy nite FeAr...

2007-02-16T03:01:00.000+03:00

Guess wut? now... i m STUDYING. Actually, no mood to study, it's like too much to study. It suppose to be interesting, a v interesting subject, but y it ends up causing me FEAR??? Frankly speaking, i m scare.

Only cover around 25% n it's 3 am d.... still got 4 more hrs only.. m i able to finish up everything n see the teacher tomolo? i really not sure of it leh..

A v good biochemistry book...

Now u noe wut subject i m studying rite? Can u help? :) Anyway, i believe i can make through, it juz one more sem (it seems like i m comforting myself only hor...) Summore CNY is juz so near, it fills every part of my BRAIN n my HEART d... i juz cant wait for the JOY of celebrating it....

Now... need to continue with Glucose Metabolism.... (HEY! faster wish me good luck la..)

CNY is NeAr...

2007-02-15T00:08:00.000+03:00

How's CNY in moscow should be? The v first thing that i normally think about is the CNY eve dinner. Dunno y, i feel it's a v meaningful dinner for all chinese, no matter who u r (either buddhist, taoist, christians, even islams) It's not about wut religion, it's all about chinese traditional practice. I do like the feeling when all the family members sitting down at a "round" table (now may be rectangular, but nvm), eating together. Chit chatting (though normally parents teach us not to talk during meals.. :P).

Though i m in moscow now, i still practise this tradition (of cos not with my family members-- no money for flight ticket). A group of close frens will sit together n eat. Anyway. being students in moscow, we have to COOK for ourselves!

Do you noe my menu for this year's CNY eve's dinner? HeHE.... erm... all kinds of chinese food of cos. Nice chick, nice fish, nice dumplings, nice..."tong yun" No SALAD allowed ok? If salad, it must be "lang pun" :P Our dessert will be "lin zhi gen".. (hope i noe the proper way of boiling it :P)

Wut's next after CNY eve? CNY morning breakfast.... We have planned nice breakfast, but... dunno r we able to prepare it.... (ques: y? ; ans: NEED TO WAKE UP EARLY LA! it's SUNDAY!)

Then, later on we will have group party..."druzhnaya gruppa" wut!... SEEMS packed rite? nvm,CNY should be packed n FUN!

WinTer OutDOOR!!

2007-02-14T02:39:00.000+03:00

Wut will u do during winter? In a country like russia, normally covered with snow everywhere, we should have made lots of SNOWMEN rite? I wish i could have done one, but till now, 2 years living in russia, i havent done even half. I have a v good chance last year, but dunno y, no one was interested in making a nice, successful snowman... it juz a so nice thing to do during a cold cold white white winter... This year...*sigh* dunno wut happened to the global weather, dun have thick enough snow... erm.. any PRO can tell me, is the snow now, thick enough ah? i really wanna make one snow man la.... is like... deadly wanting.... pls tell me :)

Another thing we can do during winter is... skating... this year i juz started to skate.. HEHE... i skated twice.. the first time experience was terrible. Can you ever imaging falling down for 20-30 times? It's terribly paining, but no blue blacks .. Lucky rite? The second time wasn't that lucky, i got blue blacks.... T.T.... but other than that, i considered lucky, cos this time, i fell less than 10 times.. HAHA.. wut a improvement rite? :P

AhHa! still got snow angels... i have never heard about it until this winter, my first snow angel was made with my "gf"... :P it was the best snow angel making process.. noone bullying me... All my frens came out with a theory that... dun ever lie down on the snow... bcos... YOU WILL BE BURIED ALIVE!!!!! i have been buried many times... i juz wanna make a snow angel, can't u all juz gimme a minute?? :( be kind guys...

Anyway, it was FUN!! Come to MoScoW n i will show u how nice it is during winter. I dun mind being ur tour guide... Dun be scared by it's crazily cold winter but, ENJOY it!

##Next time will show u all pix for winter activities.....

HeLLo...

2007-02-13T11:39:00.000+03:00

Hello...

How funny can a blog be? How serious it can be? even our pastors own blogs... it can b v informative and it can b juz that boring... i wonder wut i will post here..

Anyway, let totoro be the first person being introduced here :P

then here comes his BUS (wait a minute.. is totoro a guy?)

TOtOrO heRe!!

I don't worth a penny..

there is a reason...

a brand new year!

Joking / Kidding

Dirty Zone!

On call day...

Shivering in moscow's summer

меня зовут Галина...

my past...

Friends of my life....

staying up at nite

tHe woRDs to U..

nItE & dAy..

i miss the time we were together..

cOMplicated rElAtionSHip.. (part2)

They Didn't Know by Kurt Carr

cOMplicated rElAtionSHip..

lAst eYe-cOntAct..

sCary..

LaZzzzyyyyyy

loVe stORy

hyGieNe ClaSS

loVe stORy

*ANGRY!*

hEaLs n sAVes

ooooooOOOOOOOUUUUCCCHHHH!!!!!

pAINfulllll :)

I Don't Want To Go Somewhere

dINe wITh LOVE!!

rESt...

The Heart Of Worship

bOOm

It'll b a succeSSsss

MesSy... PuSsy..

tHe SpRinG day...

HaPPy woMEN"S dAy

HoW OlD is Koh KOh....

niiiccCEEEE ViDeo??? hidup berkualiti :P

yEE sHaNg... LoU sHaNg...

HoW olD is TOtOrO?

BrB

CNY eve DiNner

ThUrsdAy nite FeAr...

CNY is NeAr...

WinTer OutDOOR!!

HeLLo...

ANGRY!