Friends of my life....

When I was 6, I had a friend whom I can't even remember her name now, but I remember really clearly that she was my best friend.
When I was 7, I had a friend who sat beside me and I taught her to be more BRAVE (haha... stupid stuffs).
When I was 8, I beat up 2 guys because they were teasing me.
When I was 9, I had a friend who likes to compete with me.
When I was 10, I met this friend who adored sitting beside me, but all she likes about was to scold me for whatever reason.
When I was 11, I had a chance to get to know this friend whom I found really sincere as a friend. When I was 12, I decided to change my seats because I can't tolerate the person beside me anymore and that was when I met a girl who was soft to me.
When I was 13, I do not know why we quarreled and we ended our close friendship ever since, When I was 14, I met the best friend of my life, and she gave me the best of all for 3 years of my secondary school life, n I gave her the promise "You will be my best friend forever and ever". We went through bitterness, but it was not a big deal :)
When I was 15, I was so protected.
When I was 16, I actually learnt that my classmates thought differently from me, In appearance they seemed so real and were amazing friends, but to stand in the background and listened to them say "she actually hated ABC since form 1" was absolutely terrifying ... hehe.. may be we were still too young...
When I was 17, i met a friend, who stayed with me for 2 years after that, and was my really nice roomie. In that very same year, I met another friend who I always ran to take shelter. At the same time, I have a friend in which I was able share all things with .. and another whose room was my refuge a place where I can run to when I do not want to talk
when i was 18, I met a friend who taught me to say "NO", a friend who is quite funny.
when i was 19, another friend made me felt this world is very weird.
when i am 20..now my current standing... I met a friend who has an almost similar life like me, a friend who can calm me down when i m angry, a friend like my mom.....(Angeline...I am talking about you :D)

What about you?

there are more friends in my life than i can list down... but it will take a long time...
I like thinking about them, I like thinking of times we spent together, I like to call them once in a while and reminisce of the days gone by, i like bringing them back to our memories,
friends are just so meaningful in our lives....Each of them are different bringing a different sensation and different feelings. None can replace the other...none can take over anyone's place because In my heart lies their footsteps no rain can wash away.....................
they came in n went out... but they are parts of my life........

staying up at nite

it has been a long time i didnt come to this place n put even a single letter here... Totoro was once my story.. part of my life that has taught me a lot... taught me to say "NO", to reject something that shouldnt be accepted.. I really thank God to put this story line into my life... without it.. my life is incomplete, i might be the same old "stupid" person i was 3 years ago...

now is 3.22am n the sun is rising at this time.. it is not a weird scene to me after staying here for more than 3 years... Moscow indeed is a nice n pretty place for me... I like Moscow... but me myself i dunno y... may be i have my real part of life here in moscow...

Friends... came in n out of the storyline of my life... Once was close and now not, once was not n now is... i m scare to have frens n put up with promises to do sth together years later... but i hope i can... i hv this fren n both of us promised to nv leave each other no matter wut happens in the future... but how long can this promise stay? it's still a unknown answer.... i really hope i can go around europe with her, staying up at nite on her bed or someday mine in future.... hang out together.... but with all these hopes there always fears behind.... i fear i m the one cannot keep the promise or we are at one point being forced to give up... n say bye.. forever? is there any relationship that can be forever except from God's... i hv learned these years.. there r no eternal relationships in this world, even my godparemts love me so much n so do i.. in certain circumstances we have to give up in our relationship...

but deep in my heart i wanna still wanna promise her... i will never leave u... i really hope tht all my relationships will last forever n there will nt be a time to get far from each other.. but is it possible? i doubt... i really doubt.. the thing i hv least confident in my life probably is about relationship... i have failed to many times.... n i never want to fail again.......