tHe woRDs to U..

я забыла........

I have forgotten since when i have this habit of putting my own feelings in this blog page..

2months i have rested, 3 months i have been away from this page, a month i have been escaping...

will i still be accepted??

1 semester i have been lazy from studies...

wut's my future plans and wut's the next step i m goin to take? wut will be my purpose of being here in moscow, studying medicine, being at this age, being on earth?

Have i forgotten all the answers that i have had long ago?

or I m no longer the person i was, or i have been always like this....

can You really work on changing all these for me?....

QUESTION marks -???- in my LIFE...

find for me the reason.. find for me the right path.. help me out...

lAst eYe-cOntAct..

He walked away silently. The next moment, we wouldn't be seeing each other again....

He was wearing a silver colour long sleeves shirt and a tight blue jeans when i first met him. Since then, he was with me. He was there when i was studying, playing and even walking to school. Sometimes, he would appear behind of me, in front of me or he might walk to me from either side. I have never felt that nice when holding something else but him. His body always keep my chilling hand warm.

Unforturnately, he left me today without saying a single word, even a "bye".

He didn't want to, but it's all God's will. God wanted him to leave long ago, but many times, he came back to me after we pleaded God. I have never ever imagine that he left me like that. "Would you come back once again like last time? Would you? Please...."

"I haven't even taken a picture with you yet! I can't even show your face here. I scare that one day, I would have forgotten your smiling face. How could I afford to loose you."

*PAUSE*

Wait! DON'T think that @#*&%^##&*#$.....
I am writing this for my BELOVED....

PAPERMATE PACER CASSETTE mechanical pencil

He cost me rm15, the problem is not because of the price, it's because he's really my favourite mechanical pencil that I have ever had... He once fell at the doorside of the bus, my friend got it back for me, but now.. He wouldn't ever come back AGAIN....
He will be trapped in the darkness forever and ever, unless the SPORTZAL will undergo "remont"

LaZzzzyyyyyy

days by days, weeks by weeks... n i m still here... goin no where but still remain the same place.. wut m i really doin? where m i suppose to go? this is wut we said... i m LOST LAZY!!!

aarrrrggggg....

how come i m becoming like... PIG... ?????

3 years back.. one of my fren called herself PIG.. meaning "Pretty Intelligent Girl" but not that animal... however.. for most of the people PIG simply means pig... nothing else... *dun perasan ah.. people out there... not meaning u ah.. :P*

class is goin to start at 9am.. but i m still on the BED at 8.25am... oh nononono... wut a big lazy PIG!!!

"GET OUT OF THE BED!!"
"ENJOY UR SLEEP..."
"GET OUT OF THE BED!!"
"ENJOY UR SLEEP..."
"GET OUT OF THE BED!!"
"ENJOY UR SLEEP..."
"GET OUT OF THE BED!!"
"ENJOY UR SLEEP..."
"GET OUT OF THE BED!!"
"ENJOY UR SLEEP..."
"GET OUT OF THE BED!!"
"ENJOY UR SLEEP..."
"GET OUT OF THE BED!!"
"ENJOY UR SLEEP..."

STOP IT!!!!

stupid devil.. (that look exactly like myself) dun try to hold on to my leg!!!
pretty angel.. (that look exactly like myself too) pls help me up!!!

BIOCHEM is waiting for me in my room!!!
IMMUNE is calling me via the phone!!!
MICROB is nudging me thru msn!!!

HEY gal, start ur work now...BLOGSPOT din call u oso.. y u go n find HIM!!!

*ANGRY!*

*angry!*...

"BLOGSPOT! i have click the button PUBLISH!... y my blog isn't published and it has GONE!!!!!"

bOOm

small small wish.. mayb i dunno how to tell... i could have learnt... but i din.. end up... good JOB! for a [bOOm]...

pieces by pieces i gathered, pieces by pieces i applied with glue

(elephant glue)... Heart din get together though...

did i really mean it in a wrong way? i tell for WINNING?? i scold for WINNING??

"YES! i WON"

*is it sarcastic enough?*... haha... "how much i hope to win a battle over u!" :P

did i really mean that?? that's wut u told me... but i dunno...

internal: "wut have u won from that?"-- me: "i dunno.. may b he mean pride gua..."
internal: "but wut u really get from that?"-- me: "dunno... now feel no strenght.."

niiiccCEEEE ViDeo??? hidup berkualiti :P

Heavy.......Do u noe how heavy u feel when a hammer is in ur head??...My anatomy got no prob, dun worry.. i noe inside our head, our skull is not hammer but brain... but when ur brain jam and ur head feel heavy, is juz like a hammer is hidden inside.. T.T..

Have u ever seen a person taking people's lower part of the body n swinging the video camera here n there??.. it's juz so terribly captured.. it's not a personal storage of video, but need to be produced n sell... pls do ur BEST... m i toooo straight forward?? i dun mean to shoot anyone, but that clip juz gave me lots of headache n troublessss*PiiIIpIIIiiii* *water boiling**guluulu..gugullluuuu*

can we have one week holidaysssss for woMEN's day??? i really want n need... HELP!!!!....

will write bout woMEN's day soooooonnnn....

HoW olD is TOtOrO?

haha... i think TOtOrO is not v old oni... juz a few months.. erm.. anyway.. i m one year old now.. i juz celebrated my "bday" an hour ago.. wut a SURPRISE!!

Wut a messy head, messy table, messy bed... messy everywhere.. :P n there r 5 visitors... "MALUNYA.." cress, eric, weekee, ee-kim & meisiu.. who will celebrate this kind of bday la?? anyway, it's v v v SPECIAL...With cress 12-oclock bday dinner, a cards with dogs (i wonder y it isn't card with catssss!--anyway it's nice), a funny handy spicy "ba gua" (not busy body punya ba gua, is dried meat from MALAYSIA, n it's spicy), and oso... sushi mushi...OOOoooopssss.. i forgot about the chocolate..

Dun be stunt n dun think that i m crazy.. how can a 1 year-old kid writing a blog? In His eyes, we all r kids, though i m juz 1 years old, i can write and can testify about HIM!! :)

Life is not easy after i was re-born, but i believe that He will make a way, He will deliver us out of all these trials n tests, as we believe we had receive, it'll be done in His name! how should we endure? all r depending on His POWER! Everyone have tried to turn away from Him, wut we got is... He is still taste the best... He said wut... TASTE amd noe He taste GOOD!